Explanation

Okay, so I feel like I should explain my self-description. I called myself a few things that only have meaning for me, really:

(1) an introverted extrovert. so i am probably one of the shyest people you will ever meet...until i get to know you. that is, i am all but mute in situations where i know no-one, where i am intimidated, or where i am uncomfortable. however, once i get comfortable the problem becomes shutting me up. i used to act in high school. i loved it. but i practically cried before my auditions. there is just something intimidating about walking up to someone you barely know and 'exposing' yourself to them without any buffer.

(2) an openly religious individual. i am fairly religious. i am christian by birth. however, since i have now spent one and a quarter years in college, i am starting to find myself adopting certain philosophies about life that are not necessarily 'christian.' i mean, i'm not turning a 180, just a bit of a skew on my view of life, of belief, of religion. this is for many reasons but there are two that i know of for sure: (a) i have had a fairly bumpy ride in my faith-life and have serious questions about many policies of the "CHURCH" (scary and powerful insitution with some very confused and powerful people); (b) i have so many friends who have never really believed in anything but are more 'christianly' than quite a few of the christians i know.

i don't know. i am kind of an oxymoron myself. everything about me leads to a certain mystery that i don't necessarily regret.

but whatever...i've talked (or typed) your ear (or eyes) off long enough...

happiness for yous...