Greatly Confused...

Okay, I'm going to go slightly selfish in this one...

So, we had a GREAT discussion at campus ministry this week. It was just random questions (since my chaplain came without any pre-prepared discussion topic(s)). So, one of the questions was about his call: what was it like, did it turn out like he thought, when/how he got it, etc. His response really made me think about me. I have always known I was probably going to do something very involved in the Church. For forever I was following very blindly just "knowing" I was going to. But, lately I've been re-thinking it. And, even more recently, been thinking that I am really not sure anymore.

Then another question (which lasted over an hour) was about (as quoted directly from the question form) "sex and Christianity." We got a very involved and had a very deep, very good (in my opinion) discussion going. I was very pleased with it. But, then I realized that I don't think I want to accept a call--from God or not--into a church that still persecutes its members. That is, I realized as we talked, that the Lutheran church (less so the Episcopals) still persecutes sexual minorities and treats them as second-class citizens in the Kingdom. I don't think I want to be a part of that--and certainly not on the leadership of such an organization...

I thought I was confused before...now I'm just completely discouraged...